loving a person… it’s no small thing

This pretty much sums up the last couple of weeks for me. It’s the “reaching out and trying” part that hits me pretty hard right now.Loving a person just the way they are, it’s no small thingIt takes some time to see things throughSometimes things change, sometimes we’re waitingWe need grace either wayHold on to […]

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a lament – – – selah

This spring I did a series on expectations – what it actually would look like if we tried to live our lives without them. If you go back and read the series, you’ll see I never come to any kind of solid thesis (that wasn’t the point). But I did come out of it realizing […]

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unsettled

I sat down to write today, remembering I still had one more post I wanted to do to finish off my series on expectations. I don’t think I’m going to do it. I realize I could write about expectations a lot more, and the last topic is one that I think would be too much […]

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heartache [living life without expectations]

There are few things universal to the human experience. Heartache is one of them. We may feel it differently, process it differently, react differently… but make no mistake, we’ve all experienced heartache. And the thing about heartache is that no one wants to experience it, and we will do whatever we can to avoid experiencing […]

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dry bones

This last week was a very frustrating and difficult time for me. There was a big event going on at church. It was not one I was in charge of, but one in which I was more of over-seer and a support of a volunteer who was in charge. It was a week full of […]

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Heartbeat

You Who Never ArrivedRainer Maria Rilke You who never arrivedin my arms, Beloved, who were lostfrom the start,I don’t even know what songswould please you. I have given up tryingto recognize you in the surging wave of the nextmoment. All the immenseimages in me– the far-off, deeply-felt landscape,cities, towers, and bridges, and unsuspectedturns in the […]

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Chiseling Away

For the past several weeks, God’s been doing a funny thing to me. It started with a surprising incident – during a time of worship that I wasn’t leading. He makes all things good was the line in the song that stuck out for me, brought me to my knees and filled my eyes with […]

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For Whom the Rooster Crows

I am like Peter. The one who promises Jesus over and over again that I won’t do it. That I could never… that the sin tastes so bitter I’ll never want it again. But then the rooster crows and I do it. More than three times, even. (Not like once isn’t enough.) I could blame […]

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Wounds

My pastor preached on John 15 last Sunday, and if there is any chapter that I identify with the most in scripture, it’s this one. Pruning is harsh, and it really hurts when it happens to you, especially when you don’t want the pruning to happen in the first place. The things of our past […]

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Reflecting Light

I’ve had such a surreal day… and sometimes the only thing that can truly express the way I feel, is someone else’s words… Sam Phillips – Reflecting Light Now that I’ve worn out, I’ve worn out the worldI’m on my knees in fascinationLooking through the nightAnd the moon’s never seen me beforeBut I’m reflecting light […]

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