Capstone

This is my last semester of seminary. And probably my most challenging and busy. I’m working 25 a week for the church, and am the TA grader for the head of the education department (which is about 5 more hours a week). I have 10 hours of classes (and not terrible easy classes, either) AND […]

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Disequilibration

Something is not right in my spirit right now. I don’t know what that means, exactly, but I feel it in my gut. And I need to process. What is disequilibrating to me, in my life, right now? My professor spoke about disequilibration in class a while ago, how Jesus used it to teach, how […]

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Living in Grace

There is nothing that shows me God’s grace more that old reformed hymns. “Jesus Lover of My Soul” “Friend of Sinners” “Pensive Doubting Fearful Heart“. I love how they shows my need for grace as it reveals the sin in my heart. They reveal my incapability to do any good on my own, and reminds […]

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A Path Laid Out Before Me

One of the best things about Covenant Theological Seminary is the Spiritual Ministry Formation class. It is here where students in the MDiv and MAEM programs are subjected to personality test after personality test, then a serious amount of personal reflection in order to figure out and understand how God made you. Wednesday was the […]

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William Lobdell

Ever heard of William Lobdell? Probably not. But you should now, because I found this article wonderful and fascinating. Lobdell is the author of Losing My Religion: How I Lost My Faith Reporting on Religion in America — and Found Unexpected Peace Some of you may be wondering why I am reading articles and books […]

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First Thoughts

There are so many thoughts accumulating as I’ve entered this new life. So many. But I will start here: In the second year of King Darius, on the first day of the sixth month, the word of the LORD came through the prophet Haggai to Zerubbabel son of Shealtiel, governor of Judah, and to Joshua […]

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Promise

Wednesday night on my way to church for my last praise team rehearsal, I accidentally took my usual route, forgetting that two weeks ago my usual exit was closed for construction. So instead of taking an alternate route I ended up having to drive about 4-5 miles out of my way. And as I turned […]

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Bracing Myself

Today I had an admissions interview with Covenant Seminary. After the disappointing financial aid package I received from Bethel Seminary, I went through a sort of “grieving process”. My heart was set on Bethel for a number of reasons, and when I received a total of $600 in financial aid for a school that would […]

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Bad Charter. Bad. (And an update of sorts)

Last week I went through extremely patchy internet service, with most nights not being able to connect at all. It wasn’t my modem, Charter said, and it took them a week to get someone here to fix it. I’m really glad I can go to the office after hours and get done what I need […]

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Why I Feel Like a Coward Today

Today I did two important things… I called the housing director at Bethel Seminary and told her I would not be moving into the apartment they had reserved for me. Then I signed my financial aid package form, checked “No, I will not be attending Bethel Seminary and I reject all aids and grants”, then […]

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