Sunday’s Here
The resurrection is not an event, it is a person.
He is risen.
He is risen indeed.
Disequilibration
Something is not right in my spirit right now. I don’t know what that means, exactly, but I feel it in my gut. And I need to process.
What is disequilibrating to me, in my life, right now? My professor spoke about disequilibration in class a while ago, how Jesus used it to teach, how we much use it to teach. People tend to make the most progress when something doesn’t makes sense, he said, because in it community is created.
Leaving community out of it for right now, let’s focus on what kinds of affects disequilibration has on your life. For someone like me, it doesn’t go over well, especially at first. I like being comfortable. I like safety. I do okay with change… as long as I know there is comfort right around the corner.
And I am learning that in order to follow Jesus I am never going to be comfortable again. And I just don’t think I will be able to handle that.
I don’t think I really know what is going on here. Actually, no. I do know what is going on here. It just might take me a while to write it out. The problem is my unwillingness to spend some serious time in repentance.
I am so tired of worrying about doing the right thing all the time.
I am so tired of people’s opinion of me dictating my self-worth.
It is only through a “shocking” disequilibrating experience that the things you’ve struggled with for years to get to the point where you can’t take them anymore. It is only in the unrest that we move forward. It is only in the breaking of our hearts and the noise over-taking our minds that change becomes evident.
After what I’ve been through in the last 5 weeks, it will be interesting to see what progresses from here.
Elsewhere
Elsewhere in blogland: Tony at don’t call me veronica has an interesting post titled “stuff pastors don’t talk about”. I found his respond to Women’s role in the church and home particularly short and sweet:
“A woman’s role in church and home is to love God with all their heart, soul, mind, and strength – and second, to love their neighbor as they love themselves.
Oddly enough, this is the same role a man is to have.
Wouldn’t it be great if we lived that out? And as we did, wouldn’t we find that we were complementing each other in such a way that we felt like an equal, not because we were the same but because the two had become “one flesh?”
Hmm…
Perhaps complementarianism and egalitarianism aren’t competing ideas after all.”
Commenting Policy
Sorry, everyone. Due to an unfortunate comment situation that happened yesterday, where some derogatory, inappropriate and very un-Christlike comments were made, I have now disabled anonymous comments, and enabled comment moderation.
Not a big deal for most of you wonderful people who read this faithfully. For me, however… well, but I just never wanted to go there. I hoped to create a place where differing views from mine or others are welcomed and not an exercise is tearing one another down unnecessarily, without moderation or needing an account. I’ve been blogging for over 3 years now and have never had a situation where I felt this was needed. But when someone attacks the character of a person they don’t know, that is unacceptable to me.
All that said, I am taking a adapting a commenting policy from Shane over at Caffeinated Thoughts: Thanks, Shane.
-It is perfectly okay to disagree with me,and that isn’t why I deleted the comments I did – though he/she might think that’s why I did it. I expect and sometimes even hope for some to disagree with me. What I also expect (and demand, at this point) is that we disagree in an agreeable manner. I will not tolerate personal attacks on myself or others who comment (name calling and other offensive remarks). Let’s keep to the issue or post at hand. Name-calling is immature and does no one any good, and does not help build up the body of Christ.
– This hasn’t been a problem, but I thought I would include it – no vulgar language (profanity, sexist or racist remarks, etc.) will be permitted. You are free to use it, but as the blog owner I’m free to delete your comment.
– Please don’t comment numerous times when nobody is responding to you. Let’s call this for what it is – spam. I understand a couple of comments in a row if you forget to include something, have a typo, etc. But commenting 4,5, 6 times or more (in a row, without a response) is excessive. I will try to respond to comments as quickly as I can, but I am not a full-time blogger. I am full-time seminary student with a part-time job. My life is not here online.
I view blogging as journaling for me. I don’t have a political agenda, or a desire to tear other views down. What does happen often here is my emotional response to what is happening in the world. (I cheered today when I found out Ms. Kennedy took her name of the list for the New York Senate seat, but that’s neither here nor there.) I am often saddened by the state of the nation (see my post on Blog Action Day). I am often sadden by the state of my own heart (see my “I’m That Girl” post). And I often grapple with very difficult questions. (See my post on expectations, which was the most popular post here based on google search hits of 2008.) And I also ask difficult questions (see my post on infliction) and really hope we can have a conversation about it.
All that said… here’s to hoping this won’t happen again.
Stephanie Nelson 