i was wrong [portrait of an apology]

It’s hard to be remembered for something you did wrong. I’m sure a lot of people in the public eye feel this way… presidents, artists, CEOs. When you’ve filled your life with a lot of rights (and a lot of wrongs) it’s hard to think that you’ll always be remembered for the wrong… And not […]

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heartbreak and the example of Christ

My new place of employment has a unofficial tag line. “No drama… no avoidance.” Things are dealt with honestly and directly, and any drama is not tolerated. It’s taken me awhile to adjust to this kind of environment. And I suspect it will take me a bit longer to find my footing in this. Hopefully […]

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the beauty and the mess of grace

I’ve been thinking about this word a lot lately. Do you remember that scene in Evan Almighty when Morgan Freeman is talking to Noah’s wife and he says to her, “If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for […]

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reach

he reached down to me i tried to reach up that didn’t work what makes more sense… him lowering himself reaching for me or for me to actually reach him? my arms are too short yet still i reach swatting away his arm more times than i care to admit i can do it own […]

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pragmatism and the lavish love of God

I grew up on a farm. That doesn’t mean much in my life now, for I’ve always been a city kind of girl. My mom made sure there was more than just farm culture in my life growing up and I have fond memories of trips to see the Nutcracker, Broadway shows, museums and all […]

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Being the Better Person

I had a friend back in college who blew up at me once – and it was for something pretty silly. He was mad that the costume designer in the play we were both in wouldn’t sew a button on his shirt. I was the messenger (I don’t remember how or why) so I was […]

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Small Victories

I had lunch Friday with an old friend I haven’t been in touch with for about three years. He’s one of the first friends I made in this town after I moved here, and we lived in the same building for 5 years. Far more than just neighbors, we spent 3-4 nights a week together […]

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Question

**No I am not impersonating Dwight when I say “question”.** Hee. Is it better to not confront a person you’ve already forgiven, that has recently come back into your life after a long period of absence, and has never acknowledged or apologized for the hurt they caused? Especially when said person hates confrontation and probably […]

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Wish You Were Here

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,blue skies from pain.Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil?Do you think you can tell? And did they get you trade your heroes for ghosts?Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a cool breeze?Cold comfort for change? […]

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Crashing

I need to know why things are the way they are between us. This awkwardness. This indifference. This avoidance. This pretending nothing happened. Making sure none of our friends know the awfulness that lies between us, unspoken but all said in looks across the room that only we understand. Maybe if I knew the reason […]

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